I want to be your room mate again!

I want to be your room mate until the end of the fourth year degree.

May I? Sudi tak? (blink2 eyes)

One of the best bounties when becoming a university student is having a nice room mate. Alhamdulillah, I am given a very nice room mate from kulliyah Economics, an accounting student. I have been given a twinning room, so I have she only unlike others who have 3 room mates in one room.

Happiness is mine when Allah grants me with this kind of room mate! I never heard she said any bad word, very polite, does respect my privacy, caring, a magnificient smile I ever seen is hers, and many more. One thing yang mmg buat saya teruja is, she will go out at 6.45 AM on every Thursday to attend usrah. Baguskan?!

But the problem is, I don't know how to tell her my wish to be her room mate again for next semester. Malu haha.

Last 2 weeks, I told Mak,
"Mak, I have a nice roommate. And I want to be with her again for next semester. But, malu to tell her".

Mak gave me a glance of smile and said,
"Just speak it out. Sometimes people lagi suka kita bgtahu yg kita nak dgm dia lagi, sbb dia akan rasa dihargai".

I am thinking of it till today.

Last Friday, I told Tisya who is one of my closest friends,

'Aku nak room mate dengan syafiqah lagi'.

'Then, bagitahulah dia. Apa masalah kau?'.

'Entah. Aku malu. Malu nak minta jadi room mate dengan dia. Sebab aku tak sebaik dia, takut dia lah taknak jadi room mate aku dah'.

'Kau nih. Macam2 benda kau malu. Speak out of your thoughts tak malu pulak'.

'Speak out of my thoughts is something else laa. I have that confidence because those are derived from books I have read. Ni nak propose room mate jadi room mate sem depan ni bende rumit bg aku. Aku takut dia tak nak.'

'Alahai. Sini aku ajar. Aku bagi skrip ni kat kau, then balik bilik japgi kau apply. Bla bla'.

Sampai diberi skrip. But still I haven't try reading the script yet haha. Still waiting for some strength come into my heart to speak it out.

Syafiqah, please accept me to be your room mate Hahaha. Agar kita bisa sujud bersama di atas sejadah yang sama setiap hari.

Difficult

How difficult the difficult is?

When your lecturer does not have expertise on that area, but she is the one who designing questions on that particular matter,

Only then you will know what the real 'difficult' is.  How we were screwed up!

Be patient, because after every hardship comes ease.

When it comes to his time

Now, I have to share.

The end of privacy and what all. And Allah witnesses every drop of tears remembering all the memories we have spent before.

Frankly speaking, I am in the middle of trying to adapt. Adapting from being too dependent on yourself and starting avoid a secret and privacy conversations. What a privacy when your 'bachelor' is no longer.

Be it now or later.

Thanks for always telling me, your friends and your new wife that i am your beloved sister

"ni adik kesayangan" .

Several times i heard it and i never respond that you are my beloved brother before. So now,

"Thanks for being my beloved brother and the best brother evah".

Hows The Laws School?

Yeah, IIUM Laws School.

If people ask you, "What's the speciality of being Laws student?".

Do answer this, "You won't never feel the 'happiness' of under pressure until becoming a laws student. Only laws school provide that pressure".

Haha. Trust me.

One of the most significant lesson is, for the first time in my life, I have been cheated by my closest friend. And I am not the one who is being victimised. Others do.

Ok, that's all.

Because I feel free to write

Assalamualaikum. What's up! 

Some people ask me, 

"Why do you have a blog? Because people nowadays tend to expose their writing at facebook"

Look at the word 'expose' itself. That word is not totally same with a word 'write' merely. 

I'm writing because I want to write, not purposely to expose. Hee. I don't intend to make people at large to read mine. Only to feel free whenever I want to throw my thoughts out, then I can put them down here.

So, That's the difference between them too. 

Some people they chose to express their thoughts by talking, having such a long chit chat (I used to do that too sometimes), and even drawing! 

But me, I choose to write. Because I hope one day whenever I reach 30 plus yr old, I can look at myself back; how far my thoughts have improved and the maturity of I am. 

Even now I am 20 plus yr old, I feel and believe many changes have happened to myself. Laws school does it.